The Dark Side of Love

The dark side of love is the most detrimental phase of one's life.  Every thought can send your emotions into a whirlwind of what was, what is and what's going to be. Everything is an uncertainty. One finds them self searching for an answer that ultimately you don't even need.  We are accustomed and conditioned to believe that love ends in heartbreak.  Does it really?  Does it end in a place where one person fights for something because they are so invested?  What happens in the moments prior, every clue, every word said, every point of the last argument, is replayed over and over in your mind until one comes to the conclusion that one or the other or both are wrong.

Now don't get me wrong, we don't know what other parties are going through in this process.  Everyone deals with this process differently. One person may go into seclusion; when another feels getting under another person is the way. But can we agree there's always one who feels it more than another. One sheds more tears, has more violent outbursts, has more sleepless nights.  Does this person ultimately come out on top because they actually process this more internal or emotionally?  

Every song is a tunnel into your feelings, tears come at a drop of a dime, anger follows suit.  The dark side of love can be a harbor for hate as well.  You can love this person with every ounce of your being unconditionally and yet you can't fathom that you wouldn't get it in return.  You have to rationalize every decision made.  The more you can't the more you despise and hate the being.  Ultimately it isn't hate, more than just a stinging feeling of disappointment because you expected so much more.  You expect for things that were said to be exactly that. 

This journey through the dark side of love is something everyone who believes in the fairytale will endure. One has to be truthful and honest with oneself and understand that there is a lesson in this.  You will get through it, through the tears, the anger, the anger and the love, and when you do you there will be a light that shines so brightly that the good sign of love will have no choice but to reveal itself and show you that it is powerful and never ending.  Allow the process to take its course and learn and be open to the lesson. Don't shut down or close yourself in.  Don't continue to sit in darkness and wallow in the tears because they only manifest when you allow them to.  The dark side of love is a energy carried by those who walk in fear.  Don't be afraid.  The good side is soon upon you.