Powers.

     Why is it that I can tell something has happened before someone has even told me? I am just blessed with powers that can foresee or is it that I have jut experienced so much bullshit in my 31 years that I can just dont expect anything but what is inevitable? When did I become so in tune with mannerisms that I see when a person changes the instant they do. These "powers" really have a double edged sword.
     The first side is that they really work in my advantage because I am able to see past a person's outer and really get intrigued by what they don't show. Pictures they say can have 1000 words, and words are often surface level thoughts that haven't been delved into. I like to get in a person's head and when I do that it's like the movie with Jennifer Lopez...I wanna go deeper and deeper until I'm in the core of their being. It's hard finding the person who will allow you in and be truly comfortable with showing you who they really are. I like to get there because when I do, I do things that make you happy and then you become aware of feelings you haven't experienced before. Once I'm in...I'm in.
     The opposite side of that power sword is that I have become very analytical when it comes to dating and getting to know someone. I have lost alot of the patience and forgiveness I once had. I am very straightforward in my dealings and don't hide things...because I feel if I'm interested I wanna give my all and expect the same in return. I can almost instantly tell when someone is changing. Funny that the lack of communication is the first thing I detect. The texts get shorter, the person becomes a bit busier with nothing in particular and the consistency dwindles. At the first sign, I'm ready to just forget the whole situation. Not a good thing. Am I too impatient? I have become so enthralled in what I want or what my expectations are that I don't give a person a chance to show me?
     Dating with powers is definitely something that is a work in progress for me. Like any superhuman you have to be able to control the powers stowed upon you and learn when and when not to use them. There aren't many of us out here and I think that's what makes so many relationships fly by night. I joke with my friends all the time about being the source of what powers people do have, and I say that because I know when someone is trying to use the powers they may have on me and it never works. When it comes to my heart I don't play and will automatically put up a shield if I think for a second you are trying to get me.
     So I have to learn to not to always have the shield up an let people in and then find the one who has the powers that help cultivate mine and experience the world of combined powers. The ultimately what we are superhumans looking for the power(s) that enhance and cultivate our own. There's one for all of us.