Holding onto Hope (The Search for what We Need)

"He gave you want you needed" he said, "yeah and then took it away" I said. Most of the time that's what we're in the search for....the love of our life to give us what we NEEDED. But what exactly do we need? Its not like we really need love to survive, so what is it? What is it that's lacking? That's an unsolved mystery but HOPE is what keeps us in the search.

Hope just like love and relationships is a double edged sword. It can bring the optimistic mindset that everything will be okay. Life is great when everything we "hope" for we get or get close to getting. Hope gives us the sense of everything that we wish for will one day come true. "The Secret" a book I have read several times pretty much teaches that thru visual and emotional belief all things can be. Is it me or is that hope?

Now what happens when we don't get what we want? We enter a state of continuously hoping that the love we want comes to fruition. So back to my first statement, getting what we need and then losing it. I at no point believe that people give someone want they need and purposely take it away. But that belief has been tested, and have learned a new outlook on it. There are people who have not a care in the world and pretty much do as they please when it comes to the matter of the heart. They are so guarded against feeling a certain way (vulnerable) that they close off all emotions except happiness and anger. All other emotions are pointless. They are holding to hope just as much as the person they so subconsciously have managed to bring into their world.

So what is there to hold onto?? If someone pretty much as shown that they have moved on, why is it so hard to let go? Is hope that mind erasing that you lose yourself in wishing that they would come around? Is hope something that happens when you get a glimpse of what you've been searching for all along and just couldn't grasp forever? It scares me to have had something so great, and may have lost what could have been. Yet, I hold on to the hope of the day it is. Let's just hope that at that point its what I want.